i don’t know what came to my mind and came up with this. i just suddenly realized that i really need to move on… …after writing this down. before starting it all, i just wanted to say thank you… i had enough memories with you since the day we met. thanks a million times for all the things you’ve done and gave to me… from your fond hellos, corny jokes, sweet smile, tight hugs and sweet kiss. maybe, if you’ll just remembered… it all started from introducing each other’s self. nagkakilala tayo last year through my friend. nakakatuwa nga eh… simula non, i realized nag-eexist ka pala sa mundo.. you’ve been a good friend to me. marami kang nakwento sa akin, you’ve been open to say what you feel to that person. naaalala ko pa dati, a week after natin magkakilala sumabay ka na sa amin ng friend ko mag-toma.. tuwing lunch, or vacant time mo, pati na rin dismissal… tambay ka na sa baraks todo ka makasama sa amin. akala ko nag-fifeeling close ka sa amin, pero hindi pala. both of us somehow became ‘close’… i felt this strange feeling pero hindi ko pinansin yung feeling na yon kasi alam ko na your committed to someone. masyado tayong naging close, up to the point na nasabi ko na sa talaga sa sarili ko na i really love you more than you ever know… that i cared for you pero hindi ko na pinahalata sayo kasi baka mag-iba ang tingin mo. i kept it inside of me… kaya kung tutuusin, you’re really a big factor in my world… you’re my everything… that i cherish every moment we’re together. but everything changed simula ng dumating ang problema… na naging tayo.. kung alam mo lang kung gaano ako naging kalungkot sa mga oras na kailangan kita. i felt so incomplete kasi yung kulang sa buhay ko, wala. i became a prisoner in my own feelings. sabi ko nga, sana mawala na lang akong bigla sa mundo para malaman ko kung sino pa ako sa buhay mo. i want to give up, but i still hold on… coz i know you’ll keep your promise true. pero nagkamali ako.. and now ikaw na mismo ang nagsabi na i have to move on.. i will try to move-on starting today, kahit masakit. pero hindi ko sinabi sa sarili ko na iiwan kita. if i would do leave you, it would be the hardest thing to do. hinding hindi ko yon magagawa, kahit na iwan mo pa ako… nandito pa rin ako. nalaman ko sa sarili ko na baka hindi mo na talaga ako kailangan sa buhay mo… …hindi ko alam, baka pinagsisiksikan ko na lang pala yung sarili ko. i realized i’d loved you enough, or more than enough. minsan naisip ko na masyado na kitang nasasakal sa lahat ng mga ginagawa ko, kaya masakit man sa akin… i need to let you go and set you free...  and i’ve decided that this time to move-on. i will focused on some things that i think more important to worry about. ngayon, hindi ko na alam kung ano nang gagawin ko… now you’ve already said goodbye and i have to move on nah. all I know is to forget the strange feeling i felt for you before, but not the friendship that bind us together. maalala ko yung ibig sabihin ng ‘second chance’. kung alam mo lang, i burst out of tears, but i need to be strong. i know, life do change… but memories don’t. 


parang mahaba na maxado to ah.. Censya nah!