ngayong gabi.. i drown myself with your memory.. i think of you and all my fears fade away, i pray that you are safe in God's hands as i keep on loving you, my heart still stands... thanks God.. i hear her voice again.. twice ngaun araw.. i want to listen to her voice.. palagi.. dear, your love for me will always remain...   ohlala..  siguro  na ako sa kanya.. pero i dont give a damn.. i still love her.. confused lang ako.. ang dali nya nman maka-move'on.. parang wala lang.. ..     

hello grengelle.. i was still riding a PUJ went home after from school and i just get out the PUJ and walk home.. what a stupid that went out to my mind.. i dont know kung stupid bah... but i enjoyed.. i walk home.. while its raining.. feels good.. :D by the way i heard her voice AGAIN kanina in Skype.. my'dear..my'.. it feels good than walking in the rain..     kaso nga lang, nagmamadali ako kanina to submit requirements for my examination.. sayang.. pero sinadya ko talaga mag-online para marinig boses nya..   

"i wrote my name in your heart why u wana erase me?"

i was seeing forever now clearly it's the end....

but i aint ready for goodbye yet
the nights are too cold and only you can change the climate...

its been a week since our breakup and i miss her and think of her like crazy. is she over me? .. putchaks!! wala na kami.. dinaig ko pa pala ang tanga ano? napapakinig ako sa mga problema ng ibang tao lalo na sa lovelife nila.... at ako heto! dito binubuhos ang mga hindi masabi sa kahit kanino... her choice! my pain! her happiness.. i can barely stand to see myself i dont know what to do anymore im crying out for help... Grrrr.... I WANT HER BACK!!! sometimes love just aint enough...

THIS IS FOR REAL!!!

dear.. god! im sorry for what im going to say tonight!

GOD !!!! .. ...sa totoo lang..  sobrang mahal ko si ANGEL koh.. kahit sobrang SUNGIT ng mahal ko.. mahal na mahal ko ang demonyong iyon.. HELP me nman oh.. kahit kapalit buhay ko.. PROMISE!!! get me.. AFTER i POST THIS.. as long as she will be HAPPY!!! I SWEAR!!! CANT AFFORD TO LOSE HER.. OK lang sa aking gawin mo akong Guardian nya.. as long as im with her.. :D

hello blog.. i open a topic in a friend of mine about my situation now.. setting free.. she said..."some things just have to end to give you enough time to worked with the other aspects of your life. After all, whats MEANT TO BE WILL ALWAYS FIND ITS WAY BACK...but then if THEY WONT then IT WAS REALLY NOT OURS TO KEEP on the first place. but for sure there would be someone else out there more better...some who'll love us as much as we love them...someone wholl stay and fight for us. =) we just have to let go at times not because we have to but its THE RIGHT THING TO DO." im asking myself.. "Do i have toset her free?... everything that happens in our life has reasons,..i know... but it's eally hard to let go..." until now, i cry a silent tears for what happen.. sabi nga nila.. sometimes its hard to let go but its the right thing to do. putchaks! talaga .. lalo na pag mahal mo pa tlga yung isang tao .. tapos hindi mo sya kayang mawala.. lalo na pag dumadaan ang mga araw nalalo mo syang namimiss .. huhuhu.. ! Grengelle!!!

I messed up big time, and I miss my gf so much :( what do I do to get her back? grrrrr...... ANGEL!!!!      

There's gonna be some things in life that are going to make it hard for you to smile, but through all you see, all the pain, you have to keep your sense of humor and keep on smiling. you hurt me more then I deserve, how can you be so cruel? I love you more then you deserve, why am i such a fool? Somehow I know well meet again, not quite sure where and not sure when, your in my heart so until then good-bye.

seen from youtube.. love it! gusto ko sana ibigay sa GF ko, sa Angel ko, sa Dear ko...

kaso huli ng lahat...    She left me..    

:( :kakainis:

i admit, im really a dreamer.. and im reachin for a angel too high up there for hangin on and dear , i believe in for all time.. and the miracle of your love and mine... its a lonely feelin when the meaning's gone... as i what ive said "i confess... i dont want let you go"    pero dear..  ill be comin through there ain't nothin' gonna keep me from you, ill find you...  for the mean time.. i will set you free muna..

After all the things weve shared..

after love....
after smiles...
the songs...
sa tears...
and after all good things we've been...


chaos!
broken promises...
love lost...
hate...

end then comes emptiness...


this has given proof that:
tears dont prove anything like being in love...
coz if its love, then it wont be lost...
not even tym can take it off...

because if it just vanished then its not love at all in the first place...



feelings, like hapiness, sadness and fear suddenly changes... they ain't gonna last forever.... grrrr...


love ain't a feeling... it should therefore not vanish.... love is LOVE... Pure...  kind... but it stings like hell!!!!

xhet!!! i dont want to her to break-up with me..


          


I MISS MY ..